today I realized I said I love you to My Misstress and scared how that might change things especially i said it in exultation of Misstress saying sorry for being busy when i should understand that anyway that at times she could get busy with real life issues just as i could and so im sorry to Misstress for thinking you would neglect me but still wishes you would use your boy for a lil sexual pleasure.
Walks in looks around smelling chestnut wood burning in a fire with a little oak mixed in oh what a sent i think to my self looks around notices Misstress kneels down legs spread wide alowing my loin cloth to rest between my thighslowly bows down hands together above his head point fingers and thumbs touching makeing a heart shape pointing to Misstress and says May Axel come to your side Misstress
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Axel wakes up fealing a desire not sure what the desire is he heads out to find his Misstress.
As axel heads out he notices some very wonderful smelling food but it does not match his desire and keeps looking for Misstress finally he notices his Misstress's voice it pulls Axel mind away from his desire most likely because that's what he desires most he kneels down and presses his chest do the ground and and lays his hands on his lap palm up.
today as igo to wright this blog I am feeling neglected by my Misstress then noticed a blog entry was dated wrong and expect that Misstress may have not seen it and felt neglected as well so I forgive her for not speaking to me last night but I am surprised she wouldent say something of my latest assignment or even hi in the three hours i was on waiting to see her and since I was waiting I talked to a couple friends that told me of a gorean academy and the whole reason I came to my Misstress is because she was my freind and I trusted her.
today im starting to understand the seductiveness of the collar or kolar and realize that this is what i have been missing as a master. my slaves would lose the alure of their sexuality with me because of it.I am also questioning If i was ever suppose to be a master. I think once training is done I will want to be set free to decide for my self knowing all that i would need to know. Today i go to work for 3pm to 9pmand hope to talk with my Misstress about prostration and apologize about falling asleep with the computer on
1.visibly designates me as a slave, as a brand might not, it if should be covered by clothing.
2. it impresses my slavery upon me.
3. it identifies my master.
4. it makes it easier to leash me.
Write an essay on each one, and explain what they mean to you. How it makes you feel. Why does it please your owner
My collar visibly designates me as a slave helps me to show I am proud to be a slave and happy to serve. a brand might not, it if should be covered by clothing. A brand might not be the owners brand but the sellers.
My collar impresses my slavery upon me A gorean collar can be as light or as heavy as the slave themselves wish to make it. Many slaves come alive in their collars and accept their slavery. While others choose to fight it. Making their lot a very hard one and often end in death. I choose to embrace it and enjoy it more and more knowing my Misstress cares.
My collar identifies my Misstress I may beg not to be forced to serve in ways My Misstress wouldn't approve of but in the end he must obey all Free people, he is nothing but a slave. If another Free choose to go along with a slaves restrictions it is due to their respect of the wishes of My Misstress, and not due to any respect to Me.
My collar makes it easier to leash me to keep me away from danger and bend me to her will. I thank My Misstress for her guidance every day by obeying her will staying with her when she wishes and doing my daily blogs so she may see how I feel and know what I am doing and how I am doing.
today i have an unrelenting erge to fuck but yet i have not pleased my misstress to the point that she would give me the pleasure of my loins and i made error's calling Jarl Master and also looking a free in the eye. not to mention i still havent compleated my last assignment.the one thing i know she can be proud of is my loyalty to her by leaving her my blogs every day
here i have been a slave for four days and the essays are driving me nuts i am starting to think i am not going to actually Finnish my training before my Misstress will dispose of me.
